[ambient music] [electronic warbling] [lively, carefree music] - [Woman 1] You know how it start from a seed, and it be a beautiful masterpiece?

Like a rose from the concrete.

- [Man 1] Sunshine is powerful, uh?

[vibrant, joyful music] - [Cinnamon] You can't stop spirit.

Spirit doesn't have a name.

And neither does feeling.

What is real is.

You can't stop spirit.

Spirit doesn't have a name.

And neither does feeling.

What is real is.

[visceral percussion music] You can't stop spirit.

Spirit doesn't have a name.

And neither does feeling.

What is real is.

Welcome to New Orleans.

You cant stop spirit.

Spirit doesn't have a name.

- [Woman 2] Oh baby, what they don't say.

[cheerful brass band plays] - My name is Cinnamon Black.

I'm a Treme Million Dollar Baby Dolls.

I'm also 2nd Queen with FiYiYi.

They call me Voodoo Baby Doll Queen because I am a voodoo priest here.

I'd like to welcome you to our city.

[joyful, minimal music] [lively music] In the city of New Orleans, we practice two things.

We practice Carnival and we practice Mardi Gras.

There's spirituality and there's also sensuality.

And there's excitement here.

So the two of them come together, because Carnival starts out early in the morning.

It's practiced in several places in the world.

But the bones and skeletons are what comes out first.

They represent Papa Legba, the first spirit that is called.

So they come out four o'clock in the morning to Congo Square, and they drum and they drink.

They have this large, big bone with dripping blood.

And they have these large signs that say, "No to drugs, listen to your parents.

"Don't join a gang, or truly I will be back to get you."

[lively music continues] The second part of that is the Baby Dolls.

We come out right after the bones and skeletons, not at the same time.

We are the birth of Mardi Gras, the birth of Carnival.

We dress as babies.

We dress with satin dresses and bloomers.

We carry parasols and a pacifier.

And probably a bottle with some vodka in it [chuckles].

But it represents Oshun, the goddess of love.

- I love mirrors.

[lively music] Know how to manipulate mirrors.

I just love my mirrors, girl.

They safe.

You know, I was the first Doll to put mirrors on the umbrella.

But every umbrella I make for Mardi Gras, I always put a story with it.

I have a story to tell with it.

And I do that on purpose because I'm a Queen Doll.

[bright piano music] Once I step out, yes, I am a queen on Mardi Gras day and on every day, when I put this dress on.

Even when I don't have the dress on.

[woman laughing] I had a head full of glitter.

And it's just leaving when it wants to leave.

- Ain't nothing wrong with beautiful sisters.

That's a queen right here.

- He just wanted to take care of everything, and wanted me to be this queen-pin housewife.

And I'm like, no.

Like I'm used to getting it on my own, so.

When I left him, that was my breakthrough.

[bright music continues] - I said, Shannon, are you gonna make me a queen?

And look what she say.

"I'm the only queen."

[women laughing] All I could do is just fall off laughing.

I was like, "Bitch I knew you was gonna say that."

But that bitch gonna crown me one of these days.

'Cause somebody crowned, somebody crowned her.

I'm gonna be the #*#*#*#*#*#*#* duchess of somebody.

I don't know if other people feel how I feel.

[somber, minimal music] Talk about the patience of Job.

But it means something more personal.

And more, I don't know, probably emotional too.

When it's your people running up to you out of nowhere, people you don't even know.

Especially children like, "Oh, can I see that umbrella?"

Be like, "Yeah, you can see it."

"I can hold it?"

"Wanna take a picture?"

"Yeah, let's take a," voice change.

"Let's take pictures and get them, the whole family."

[mellow music] - You're like a diva in your community.

The reason I mask and continue to mask is because I don't know if you guys feel it, it is an emotion, it's a spirit that takes over you, those drums, just to see the pageantry, and like all of these people.

[mellow music continues] It warmed my heart for little girls to come up to me and wanna take pictures with me.

Especially, I hate to say it, especially a little dark girl.

"Mama, her skin, like my skin."

You have to have self love.

And we ain't pretty just because we are dark.

Just say you pretty.

[lively, minimal music] I mask because it gives me energy, it gives me light.

- [Cinnamon] You can't stop spirit.

Spirit doesn't have a name.

And neither does feeling.

What is real is, what is real is, what is real is.

You see, voodoo has a lot to do with the spirituality in New Orleans, has a lot to do with the second line and the first line.

Because the second line originated from the funerals.

You need that music to bring you out the house, to bring you to the church.

Because when you're listening to the music and allow it to possess your soul, you allow your ancestors to be a part of you.

- [Woman on phone] New Orleans is a city that's, they believe in sending you home when you pass away.

They don't just have some #*#*#*#*#*#*#* funeral.

They send you home.

Paying your respect, that's how you give your offering to the #*#*#*#*#*#*#* city.

- [Woman] I only put on my Baby Doll costume when I feel moved by spirit.

[lively music continues] I'm proclaiming my womanhood.

- I want my Baby Dolls to always be fearless in every way.

Meaning, you're not afraid to get dressed, and go out there, and show your #*#*#*#*.

But at the same time, you're not afraid to stand up for yourself.

You're not afraid to speak up for yourself.

You're not afraid to do whatever it takes to get your respect.

[pensive music] - [Woman] How you gonna embrace being a Baby Doll and what it takes to be a Baby Doll, if you ain't even embraced your womanhood yet?

- [Woman] The Baby Dolls were actually whores when they first came up.

And they used to dress up, and the white men loved them so much during, when they first came out, the white men used to pin money on 'em.

They'd walk up the street full of money.

They dressed like baby dolls to upstage them white whores down there in the Quarters, the gator.

Heads up, they were the latest.

- They were maybe women of the night, or they were some women that did some questionable things.

Or just in a culture that we are, some men say they think that the woman's body is for them.

So that was their way of protecting themselves.

- [Woman on phone] The origin of Baby Doll is that it's not one singular story, right?

Stories build just one characterization of the development of the Baby Dolls.

- [Woman] We're every other woman.

We just open in that area.

The fact that you know that I dance, you're going to belittle my character.

[mellow music] That doesn't define me.

Up here, I can talk you into circles.

But I'm already standing.

But you denied me at first.

Such a misfit, you know?

I love a misfit.

But that's how we know this society look at us.

I can't really identify with it.

So I'm gonna disown it.

This character and that character are not the same person.

How could you be?

- Once you put on these outfits, you're a different person.

As if when you're being a Baby Doll, you're able to let your hair down.

So I'll be more childish, and I'll be more tartish, or more sexy.

[somber music] - [Cinnamon] You can't stop spirit.

Spirit doesn't have a name.

And neither does feeling.

What is real is, what is real is.

There are some things that men can do that we can't do.

And there's some things that we can't do that they can't do either.

Because in Haiti, voodoo is ruled by men.

But in New Orleans, it's ruled by women.

Welcome to our world.

[mellow music] - You gotta go through what it takes to get past whatever it is that's keeping #*#*#*#* on your mind.

You know, like with a relationship.

I used to say this is the worst relationship I've ever had in my life.

I think it kind of still is, but I don't know.

I had to pray this boy off me.

And I say, pray him off of me like I was praying with tears, and everything like, "God, please."

The first thing you got to do is get tired of a #*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*#*.

My mama said, "I don't care how many times you go back, "there will be the time when you gonna be like, "#*#*#*#* all that."

#*#*#*#* him, or whoever.

Or whatever your situation is, #*#*#*#* him.

And see, it's one thing to see yourself say that and you sound good, and it's a good joke and you're laughing.

It's another thing to, I don't give a what it sound like.

I know what it feel like, I mean that.

- [Woman] You can't never go outside of your purpose, or outside of yourself.

'Cause I did go through a period of trying to be fit into this cookie-cutter thing.

And that's why I was like, it's not about other people.

#*#*#*#* with yourself.

Yay, me!

And I ain't you.

#*#*#*#* with yourself and everything else going to come to you.

- [Woman] All I can tell ya, pay attention to yourself.

Pay attention to yourself when your moods change.

Pay attention to why they change.

Did anybody contribute to that?

- [Woman] You can't water yourself down.

- [Woman] You ain't me, and I ain't you.

- [Woman] And that's how it is.

- [Woman] Whatever in your mind and your heart you feel, that's what you do.

You gotta sit us in the bottom and point us to the sky.

- [Woman] You gotta be all you gonna be.

And guess what?

You want other mother #*#*#*#*#*#*#* that's going to be firecrackers with you.

- Everybody gonna see it.

You know what I'm saying?

It's just like Mardi Gras day, that's your stage.

That's your debut, that is your day.

That's it, right there.

'Cause when you come out on Mardi Gras day, you about to come out.

You about to tap, Doll.

You about to put your foot on that ground and shake it.

You know what I'm saying?

That #*#*#*#* is important to me.

- [Woman on phone] Put on that masquerade.

You can put on that costume, and you transform into something that is liberating, that is free, that counters what people's expectations are of you.

- All for the love, and the beauty, and the culture, and hitting them streets on Mardi Gras morning.

[Woman] That #*#*#*#* is important to me.

- [Woman] For that moment, for that day, for just the little time that I could walk ready with my umbrella, nothing else matters.

- [Woman] That's your stage, that's your debut, that is your day.

That's it, right there.

- It's an emotion, it's a spirit that takes over you.

- [Woman] All for my people to see me looking fine.

- [Woman] Once you put on these outfits, you're a different person.

- [Woman] That means something to your people.

When I say your people, I mean the people that look like me, that's coming out to see me.

- [Cinnamon] We are the birth of Mardi Gras, the birth of Carnival.

- [Woman on phone] They represent Saint Anne for the Catholics, and then, Oshun, the goddess of love for the Africans.

- [Woman] To see the money I spent, see the work I put in.

- [Woman on phone] And she's the bi rth, she's the beginning.

So, you have like the birth of Mardi Gras going on here, the birth of carnival, the beginning.

'Cause the day is coming, then the Baby Dolls come out, soften it a little bit.

And then after the Baby Dolls come out, then you have the Indians.

And they represent the di fferent communities, you know?

They represent the spirit of the ancestors.

They have to go out and behave a particular way to feel, or to be accepted.

You know, I've seen that happen to my grandmother, to my mother, to my auntie.

And I never really understood exactly who they really were because they were so protective of their real identities for fear of some type of chastisement by someone from the outside.

- [Woman] But you gotta give that respect.

This city is the city that care forgot.

So you got to give it some love.

You know what I'm saying?

- [Woman on phone] I just feel free, you know?

And all of those other identities I just shake off.

In the moment, I'm me, me.

- [Cinnamon] You can't stop spirit.

Spirit doesn't have a name.

And neither does feeling.

What is real is, what is real is, what is real is.

[voice echoing] [lively, joyful music] ♪